— V to Me
— Michael Dobson - Dec 2012
Not the Arnie feature film but December 21st 2012.
I was far more excited yesterday. For all those reading in English the date was 20/12/2012. Excellent!
I wrote a letter to my unborn daughter purely because of the date. It wasn’t an interesting letter, mainly explaining that her mother and I still have no idea what she will be called. Anyway, I digest….
Turned over to Sky News at 11.11am this morning to watch the End of the World.
Must say I was so please for the news reporter deserves an award.
As the countdown finished he gazed into the picturesque backdrop waiting with baited breath to see something, anything. He merely exclaimed:
“The Sun has come out which is rather nice.”
All of this build up and I could not be more happy. Perfect timing, perfect tone. An award should be heading your way Sir.
— Me - Dec 2012
We were very lucky recently to be lent a wee MSi U130 laptop computer in the absence of any other device. I’m utilising it to the very best of my ability by writing this in the bathroom at home. Makes a change from the library computer!
Everywhere we look now, Christmas lights are being erected and peoples false happiness and cheer is out by the dozen. You can’t turn a corner without seeing some signage direction you to a Christmas sale nor a shop window without the inevitable fairy light lining. Now don’t get me wrong, please don’t, Christmas is a lovely time of the year and I do enjoy it. Partly because I love the weather - I love wrapping up warm and walking around through mist and drizzle whilst getting a sick satisfaction out of most people being miserable because of it - but also because, whether you like it or not, it does bring back a warm and comfortable feeling in ones belly, remembering happier times and more importantly simpler times. God to be that 6 year old me facing the end of the world if my Mum had not bought me the ‘right’ Mighty Max play set as opposed to being this grumpy, 25 year old, father to be thinking “Why am I buying people things that they don’t need with money I don’t have for a religious celebration that I don’t believe in?” Christmas is about giving yes but if we all give to each other, why not just miss out the middle man and say: “Don’t get me anything this year, I’m taking £100 and burning it on myself on stuff that I want and I’ll send you the thank you card”?
I sound so negative, I think this is only a reaction to the ‘hardship’ that I am finding myself in financially. It doesn’t really bother me but if I don’t want anything from anyone why should I have to provide for them? I know full well that come Christmas Day, if I didn’t have anything to open I would be miserable. That’s more Pavlovian than spoilt I think but it would be the truth. I think ideally, I would just like Christmas to be over with as soon as possible so I can be a Dad. This is how God must’a felt….
It’s Christmas. Not Xmas. I refuse to accept anyone abbreviating in this form even though I am not religious. It’s principle.
Back to me and the past few months. Things are hard with money. For the first time in my life literally emptying out that last tin of beans on a questionable last slice of bread. At least I have a roof over my head and all is set for the young one to arrive. V is well but nervous and hormonal. A fantastic combination. I haven’t seen my Dad in a while, things are good with Mum but I won’t be seeing Christopher anytime soon which saddens me as he is the one person who has always been there throughout my entire life. I suppose this is growing up.
I hardly see anyone else anymore but that I suppose is a mixture of convenience and laziness. Real friends will always be there no matter how long the breaks are.
My plants died a death. I salvaged some fruit though so will plant in the New Year. Jimi Hendrix is set to release a post houmous album next year. Very exciting. I’m hooked on I’m a Celebrity and want nothing more than Rosemary to win. She is wonderful.
All said, quite a dull month or two, let’s hope things spice up in the next week or so.